Kyle shrugged and sat down beside him on the couch. "Not really. I wanted to get to know the town more, but it's really, ridiculously small. That's okay though. I don't plan to get to know a lot of people."
Ryan was surprised by that, but then he realized that his surprise was coming from his own background. He liked people. Maybe Kyle didn't. Not getting to touch anyone would definitely make him reconsider being around them. "Planning to get to know me?" he teased.
Kyle rolled his eyes, and smiled a little. "You're my roomie. I don't really have a choice." After a few minutes he took off his hoodie, but he still had on a long sleeve shirt under and no more of his skin was exposed than before. But Ryan did get a good look at the body he had been hiding underneath the oversized hoodie. Kyle was lean and toned. Ryan just wished he knew what kind of abs Kyle was hiding too.
"You can stop looking now, you're not getting into my pants."
Ryan quickly glanced away from him. "I know that. Obviously. Look, I'm sorry. You're attractive though. But I'm sure you know that."
He snorted, and then he started laughing. "It's fine. Seriously. I get it. You already said you like sex. And I know you're gay. So it's okay. I'm just a little overwhelmed right now. Have been for a while actually. So let's do this. You can look, but you can't touch. Don't even try."
Ryan got it. He really did, but he didn't think that was really fair to Kyle either. After screwing up so hard with Seth, he wanted to try harder with his newest roommate. "You're not some peep show. I can handle not treating you like one."
He just barely caught Kyle's small smile before it was gone again just as quickly as it had come. "Thanks for that. It's really decent of you."
"You're welcome. Though, just for the record, it would be nice to be able to touch you sometimes." He and Seth had enjoyed a relationship like that, even though Seth was asexual. Seth had enjoyed kissing, and Ryan did too.
"You're going to have to find someone else to suck you off." Kyle sounded so angry that it took Ryan by surprise, and that surprise cost him a few minutes while he tried to figure out just why Kyle had jumped to that conclusion about what he was saying.
"I meant holding your hand. Hugging. Things like that. Shit." Ryan shook his head and got off the couch. If that's what Kyle thought of him, then they had some serious things to discuss because that's not what Ryan wanted from him at all.
Kyle's gaze followed him around the room as he paced. "Really? You're going to start with that?"
Ryan didn't like Kyle's tone, or how defensive he was feeling about what Kyle was saying. "That's all I was saying. The end. Hugs and holding hands. Maybe some kisses. Look, I'm sorry that's not what you expected, or maybe I'm not. I don't know. The point is that I get that you can't touch people. All I was saying is that I wish you could. That's it. Seriously."
Kyle seemed to lose some of his stiffness as Ryan babbled. "You said that you liked to hook up with people."
Ryan shrugged. "Yeah. And?"
"Hooking up means sex." Kyle said it like he thought Ryan was stupid.
He rolled his eyes. "I know what it means, but that's not all I do. I..." God, he sounded so ridiculous saying this. "As much as I like sex, and I do, sometimes I miss just being close to someone. The last time I had a real conversation with someone I was dating was something like last year. The rest of it is some movies, meals, and plenty of sex. Nothing more. My old roommate, Seth, a lot of that I could do with him but I was a moron. I put too high a value on what I wasn't getting from him that I didn't see what I was. If I hadn't been so stupid I could be dating him right now instead of Jeremy being with him."
Kyle rolled his eyes. "Look, I don't know Seth, or Jeremy, but I'm pretty sure that if Seth never dated you, there was no chance no matter how you were, or how you are now. From what I know of people, they either want to be with your or they don't. But whatever you're thinking right now, I'm not the answer. I'm not Seth's replacement and while it's great that you realized that in the long run sex doesn't matter all that much, it doesn't change anything between us."
He got up and, without another word, headed into his bedroom, leaving Ryan alone to think about what he'd said.